Last night, I felt like I was going to die.
Last night, I was so scared.
Last night, your ignorance towards my sickness was obvious.
Last night, you let me walk upstairs to get my own medication.
Last night, if I was to fall, I think you would have let me stay there.
Today, I'm better.
Today, Your intentions of pointing out the obvious about our relationship's flaws were pointless if you weren't trying to fix it unless you're trying to tell me something else. I asked you if you wanted to leave me, your usual answers are getting way too old, "I never said that." But the real question is, is that what you're trying to say?
Today, you said that I get on your nerves every 2 minutes.
Today, you said that maybe we're not meant to be.
Today, you wanted to take me home.
Today, you said you didn't want to see my face.
Today, you said my things were crowding your space. Or maybe you're just trying to get me to take my things out of your room, your house, your life.
Today, you wanted me to just walk. You said it was nice out. I guess you were trying to tell me that that made it okay for me to walk to my cousin's house. Then you said you didn't want to drive me there because it was too far. What?
Today, you said you were going to hit the _ out of me.
Right now, I just smile. You're horrible. I really hate you.
Two weeks ago, you dumped me, two days later, you asked for me to be back in your life. That you couldn't be without me. I'm back, and you act like this. You told me everything would be better. You're actually killing me. I haven't been happy for a long time now. Things were getting better at first, you gave it about a week before you went back to your usual self. Now you make me believe that you haven't let anything go yet. Until then, I don't think it'll work. Like you said... we're not meant to be. But if being meant to be is so important, why is the subject about Marriage so hard to talk about?
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